What a day to feel lonely.

Feeling alone. I know I'm not unloved, but I certainly feel forgotten.

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Feeling sad.

Don't know what to do.

Wish you were here. Wish anyone was here.

Sometimes I wish that I could be in heaven now. Just to be with them, the two that I miss the most. So it could be how I always wanted it. Perfect. Even though one of them is still alive, I miss you even more than if you were gone.

I need to start talking to God again. I think that's the only way this darkness has a chance of leaving for good. Sometimes I feel okay. Sometimes.

As long as I don't think about anything real, anything outside of what I have to do today, I can handle it.

Life is a lot to handle. And I haven't been doing so well. I wish you knew. And I wish you cared.

I still hope for the future. I still dream of us.
Nan, I dream and think about the great times we will have when we are together again.


Miss you two.

I was in it for the long run.
I was committed.
My whole life was for you.
You don't realize how much I did for you. Because of you. Because I love you.
I thought we were going to move in together. Get married. Wear matching rings on our fingers. Buy our first house together. Support each other. I saw myself getting married to you, with your family surrounding us.
My family is your family. I don't know if your family was ever mine.
My house is your house. I don't know if your house was ever mine.

My whole life will change without you here.
I never pictured it without you.

Apparently you never pictured your life with me.


Goodbye for now.

Struck.

Feel It Now
By the Black Rebel Motorcycle Club
Bones Soundtrack


And all my sorrows awaken
And all my fear's run down
I turn myself into an angel
I run myself into the ground

I'm on my own I'm sure I'll feel it now
I'm on my own I'm sure I'll know it now
I'm on my own I'm sure I'll feel it now
I'm on my own I'm sure I'll know it now

And all the reasons invading
Twist and turn my aching soul
I leave myself behind in pieces
I know you'll need them when I'm gone

I'm on my own I'm sure I'll know it now
I'm on my own I'm sure I'll feel it now

I'll never see again
I'll never see again
The worst has come I'm fallin' in
I'll never see you again
I'll never see you again
The worst has come I'm fallin' in

I'm on my own I'm sure I'll feel it now
I'm on my own I'm sure I'll know it now
I'm on my own I'm sure I'll feel it now
I'm on my own I'm sure I'll know it now

You Can Do It If You Try

Love Vigilantes
Iron And Wine
Around The Well (2009)

Oh, I've just come from the land of the sun
From a war that must be won in the name of truth
With our soldiers so brave your freedom we will save
With our rifles and grenades and some help from God

I want to see my family
My wife and child are waiting for me
I've got to go home
I've been so alone, you see

You just can't believe the joy I did receive
When I finally got my leave and I was going home
Oh, I flew through the sky, my convictions could not lie
For my country I would die, and I will see it soon

When I walked through the door my wife she lay upon the floor
And with tears her eyes did soar, I did not know why
Then I looked into her hand and I saw the telegram
Said that I was a brave, brave man, but that I was dead

A Life Full of Laughter

This is my song.
Our song.
<3

Life After You
Daughtry
Leave This Town (2009)

Ten miles from town and I just broke down
Spittin' out smoke on the side of the road
I'm out here alone just tryin' to get home
To tell you I was wrong but you already know
Believe me I won't stop at nothin'
To see you so I've started runnin'

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughing with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you

Last time we talked, the night that I walked
Burns like an iron in the back of my mind
I must've been high to say you and I
Weren't meant to be and just wasting my time
Oh, why did I ever doubt you?
You know I would die here without you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughing with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you

You and I, right or wrong, there's no other one
After this time I spent alone
It's hard to believe that a man with sight could be so blind
Thinkin' 'bout the better times, must've been outta my mind
So I'm runnin' back to tell you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
Without you God knows what I'd do

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughing with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you