Happy? Not Today, Thanks.

Tired of this shit.

I don't want to deal.

Sad thing is,

it's all I have.

I mean what I say.

Usually.

So don't laugh.

This is how I feel,

you poking fun

is only making me

hate myself more.

Good job.

Get it right.

I don't want to be this way.

But I don't have any choice.

Why would I do this?

I don't get angry.

I'm just frusterted.

Being treated like crap

and having friends offend me

really isn't my style.

I mean what I say,

and I say what I mean.

Don't think I'm insulting you.

I'm telling the truth.

I wouldn't lie to make you feel better.

That's not me.

So deal.

I love you.

My intention is not to cause hurt.

I simply want you to know the truth.

Except you already know.

You just don't want to admit it.

That's all I'm saying.

Second Semester Senior?

Scary thought, isn't it?
I'm not really sure how I'm feeling right now. Stressed, that's for sure. And I don't even have any classes right now. Ridiculous, I know.
It seems like everyone has someone.
I don't think I have anyone.

Pfft. Another depressing post. Yay.

Recent Events

My heart goes out to the boys from Bathurst High School in northern New Brunswick. Their coach's wife, Elizabeth Lord, as well. She taught at a local elementary school.
I cannot imagine what their community is going through right now. My school has had some tough breaks this year, but nothing can compare to this. We all have taken some risks and made some poor decisions, and this accident just makes it all the more real. It shows us that accidents happen and there is absolutly nothing we can do about it. This makes me have mixed feelings, telling me that there's nothing we can do but make smart decisions.
My prayers are for you boys.


This song has recently touched me, and I wanted to share these lyrics with you.

"What Do We Know?"
Thousand Foot Krutch
The Flame In All Of Us (2007)

Pick up the phone, nobody's home,
I'm all alone, we've all been here before.
Yesterday, I saw a change, another way,
as you walked out the door.
It's a twist, a little bit, I'll admit,
but we're stronger than before.
Open up, we've had enough, we've had enough,
Now we're holding on... and waiting

What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
I'll tell you what they're all sayin'
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
I'll tell you what they're all sayin'

We all try to be somebody,
but the world around us makes it so cloudy.
When we are trust,
where we're supposed to,
but the blood on their hands says
we're not close to the answer yet.
But maybe if we pulled together, we could change
a million live for the better, and maybe,
if we prayed a little more, we would stop,
Living in fear from the story,
and everyone sings

What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
I'll tell you what they're all sayin'
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
I'll tell you what they're all sayin'

Every part is you,
every part is me,
raise your hands and sing!
Tell them we can be!
Show them who you are,
show them you can see,
raise your hands and sing,
tell them we are free!

What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
I'll tell you what they're all sayin'
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
I'll tell you what they're all sayin'

Every part is you,
every part is me,
raise your hands and sing!
Tell them we can be,
show them who you are,
show them you can see!
Raise your hands and sing,
tell them we are free!


What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
I'll tell you what they're all sayin'
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
What do we know?
I'll tell you what they're all sayin'