Done. Finished. Over. Ended.

I'm just trying to keep my head above water. Don't push me down any further, thanks.
I think I am going to quit work. I can handle 2 months without a paycheque. Hopefully. I just don't know if I can handle leaving all those people I love. I feel so connected with the residents and the staff. It's going to break my heart, but what can I do?
Rugby and football are crazy. Practice four days a week plus double-game-days on Saturdays...not to mention AP exams, which are fast approaching and I haven't even finished the courses yet.
I am feeling so overwhelmed, I don't know what to do.
There's a stong feeling in my gut that I should just take off for a couple days and get away from it all. But who am I kidding? I would just worry and stress over how much I would have to do when I got back.
I will be so relieved when this schoolyear is over. I know next year is going to be hard, but I can't even think of that now. I knew grade twelve would be tough, but I never expected to feel like this. I've never felt like this before. Sometimes when I can't sleep I actually can't breathe because I am so worried. I constantly feel like I am drowning. I can't breathe. It's scary.

I am ready for a break.
Please.

Comin' Home

So, I don't think I can handle much more in my life right now. Daily breakdowns over ridiculous things really take a toll on me.
Is calculus really this difficult? No. My brain just refuses to cooperate at the appropriate times.
Psychology class is fun: I realize what an idiot I am and how all of my moronic tendancies are shaping my everyday life.
So, since I'm a little overwhelmed, I decided it would be best not to put any more stress on myself.
Then I realized: Oh, rugby AND football are both starting this week. Oh, and work is changing now too (I'll be working a lot more). So, say 8 hours of rugby a week, 3 hours of football, and 12 or 15 hours of work.... ~3 hours of homework a night (unless I give up especially early)...

Basically, it's come down to:
Drowning or suffocation?