Aw, Life.

So lately, life has been stressful. Not just your run-of-the-mill, worried-about-some-test stressful, but full-blown, I-should-just-shoot-myself-now kind of stressful.

Yesterday I applyed for three jobs. Hopefully sometime this weekend I can drop off another two resumes. I decided I needed to work through this summer if I want to get out of my first couple years of university debt-free. I do have a job right now, but I don't work too many hours a week, and my hours won't increase through the summer. I also want to LIT at Medley, but I don't know if I will be able to get time off work. Maybe next summer I can convince them to let me work at Camp all summer long (and get paid).
Being 'young' makes everything so much more difficult. Ugh.

School right now is torture. I sit in homeroom and ask myself if it's time to go home yet. With a ton of projects, essays, and reading to do, I am so tempted to just not show up.

Rugby was going well. I did horribly at today's practice and I am extremely mad at myself. We won yesterday's game 25-19 (versus Leo Hayes), and I got to play a little bit towards the end.
Football is going well too. I haven't been to too many practices yet, but there is a car wash all day on Saturday (y'all should come out...across from St. Mary's Grocery) and our first outdoor practice is on Sunday night.

My grandfather moved last Friday...He was living in an apartment in Moncton, but since my grandmother died last August, he decided he would be better off living in an 'assited living' facility. I really wanted him to move up here to Ste. Anne's Court, but the money difference was too substantial. He's in Riverview, so it's hard for me to get up and see him. I really hope he stays there for a few months and then decides he would be better off up here with the rest of his family. I want this more than anything right now, and he just won't hear it from me. It is so frusterating. I think he is doing okay now though, so I guess that's the most important thing.

I'm so glad I have Friday and Monday off (even though I have tons of stuff to do on both days), because I think I might have a nervous breakdown (or an angry uproar) soon...

Pray for me. I feel so far from God lately...I know it's horrible, but when I'm so busy and exhausted, I just cannot do my devotions at night. I am trying, trying, trying to get them done though. I never go to church anymore with Meagan, because I am always working or in Moncton! Just pray for me not to stray too far from God.
Thanks guys.
Love Hannah.

Posts

First off -- there's (finally) a new post at The Message (another blog that I write with)...go check it out.

Life is getting better I think...No shortage of high-school drama. Man, I can't wait to get out of there. Work is stressful, school even more so. But the year is almost over (even though we got a ton of snow today, I know it's really springtime) and I should be getting ready for rugby and summertime.

Hannah.