Sunday, December 31

Choices

Everyone says like is full of choices. I would have to agree. Every morning we are faced with different situations, but most of the time we don't have two options, a right and a wrong. If only, if only life could be that simple.
I bought a book a few days ago at Blessings when I was in Moncton. It's called "More Would You Rather...?" and it is written by Doug Fields. The entire book is simply a question: would you rather this or that? and the game is to openly discuss your answer and why you chose it (it was written for youth workers so they would have something to talk to their students about).
I have posted on my other blogs, without much response, and I wanted to share my opinions here so that everyone who (hopefully) reads my blog can comment and share their opinions s well.

So, here are two new ones...
No. 9:
Be boiled alive or frozen to death?
No. 38:
Write a book or be the object of one?

Hannah.

Monday, December 18

Hmm...Nothing that exciting is going on, so I decided to post another pointless quiz-thing that someone did on myspace. Exciting, eh?

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Hannah
2. HanHan (Mikey)
3. H-fish (Meagan)

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Loved ones dying
2. angry parents
3. being naked

THREE THINGS/PEOPLE THAT MAKE YOU HAPPY:
1. Meagan
2. Rugby
3. Laughter

THREE THINGS YOU HATE:
1. Crying
2. Fish (eating and/or having to touch them)
3. Feeling alone

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Music
2. ?
3. ? Yeah, I'm pretty basic.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. two socks
2. old jeans
3. my dad's hoodie

THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Eyes
2. Humour
3. Their Height (come'on now, I can't have a guy shorter than me!)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Thinking
2. Music: listening/playing/writing
3. Laughing/telling jokes/making people laugh/making people momentarily happy

THREE THINGS YOU WANT REALLY BAD RIGHT NOW:
1. This French Assignment to be done
2. This cold to go away
3. For it to be Christmas and/or Rugby season

THREE CAREERS YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. Medical Doctor
2. High School Teacher/University Professor (science or math)
3. English teacher in a poverty-stricken country (at least for a couple years)

THREE PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION:
1) Moncton
2) Maine
3) Camp Medley
(I accually go to these places regularly)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1) Something worthwhile
2) Help other people
3) Experience a life-changing moment




Hmm....I thought of something exciting that's happening! I'm going to the formal (with a date!) on Thursday, and then supper at my aunt's on Friday, then the Reserve for the lights w/my uncle and papa on Saturday, then watching old movies all day Sunday (probably some xmas shopping too), then opening gifts on Monday and eating some stuffing that night.
Sure, exciting stuff. Just nothing happening right now!
Stupid French project.

Hannah

Monday, December 11

Five Things: Version II

I have been renaming all my old posts and I came acroos this and wanted to update it...

A Year Ago, I:
1. Was in 10th Grade
2. Was worried about Nana
3. Slipped, but only once
4. Grew
5. Had a really awkward experience w/Katie/Jonah/ick

Years Ago, I:
1. Was still younger than everyone else
2. Found God
3. Wasn't sure I'd be here today
4. Had no dog
5. Moved...across the river

Yesterday I:
1. Was in Moncton
2. Ate supper at 4:15
3. Watched Save The Last Dance
4. Avoided doing French Homework
5. Spent time with the family

Today, I:
1. Woke up early
2. Didn't have any tests (first day in 2+ weeks)
3. Blogged for a long time
4. Listened to Dave Cooks The Turkey (Stuart McLean's famous Canadian story) in English
5. Bought Papa's Christmas present

Five Songs I Know All the Words To, Even Without the Music:
(wow...a lot...I think...)
1. The Scientist
2. Made To Heal
3. The songs I make up on the spot in the hallways at school, usually having to do with someone's name, like "Lan-na Gil-bert is Fun-ky like a Monk-key!"
4. Jingle Bells
5. Blessed Be The Name of The Lord

Five things I'd buy With $100,000:
1. Some socks...where do they all go?
2. A sponcer child
3. A few pychiatrist appointments
4. The rest of my life's summers at Camp Medley
5. ???

Five Songs You've been listening to Lately:
1. Winter Wonderland
2. Carol Of The Bells
3. Oh Holy Night
4. My Grown-Up Christmas List
5. My wonderful singing when I think no one's home

Top Five Locations I'd Like To Run Away To:
1. Meagan's house
2. The Northside
3. Africa
4. St. John
5. Meagan's House?

Five details about you:
1. I almost always have an opinion.
2. I cannot sing well, but I love to sing my soul out.
3. I think. A lot. I'm sorry, but you'll have to deal.
4. I'm really quite shy, even though I don't appear like that at all....but sometimes I really, really surprise myself and can have spurts of courage
5. I am only 15. Yeah, get over it.

Five details about your appearance right now:
1. Really cold -- you can tell by the slightly blue fingernails and goosebumps on all exposed skin
2. I blew my hair dry this morning, so it's almost straight
3. I have on that fuzzy sweater that drives me nuts
4. I look like me?
5. ?

Five things that everyone should know about you:
1. I hate fighting. I cannot stand it.
2. I am trying to live a better life through God, and please respect that.
3. I think a lot, and usually need a bunch of alone time.
4. I try my best, so please don't criticize me. I take things to heart and always remember them.
5. I am a strong believer in the Golden Rule.

Five favorite movies:
1. Save The Last Dance
2. Remember The Titans
3. Home Alone
4. Mrs. Doubtfire
5. Finding Nemo

Five things that make you happy:
1. Laughter
2. The feeling I get when I am surrounded with God's spirit and can feel it all the way through me
3. Meagan
4. Feeling the rain, especially when laying on the ground. Snow is good too, but then you get cold.
5. Silence

Hannah

Thursday, December 7

Tangible Things Are Nothing

Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. ~Matthew 6:19-21

A few days ago in English class we were to write a journal entry about what one thing we would save from our house (other than people and pets) in a fire. I sat, dumbfounded, staring at my paper for five minutes before concluding that nothing in my room or my house was that important to me. Sure, I have souvenirs from elementry school, class projects from 8th grade, and a very expensive Biology text book, but nothing that seems to be worth anything to me. I value memories more than anything. If I were to get permadent amnesia, I don't think I could live with myself.
And then it occured to me...Everyone is always complaining about how Christmas has been turned into a gift-giving holiday. It's true! This year I didn't really want or need anything, but no way was I going to tell my mum to donate to a charity (or anything like that) in my name. The fact is, I'm greedy. Christmas comes and we get presents. Easter comes and we get chocolate.
I'm fed up with only wanting tangible things. I want God! I want a relationship with Him. That I think is worth more to me than anything or anyone on this earth. Christmastime should be a time when your relationship with God gets a chance to grow. We are suppose to be celebrating the birth of his son! You don't go to a baby shower and expect other people to give you gifts, do you? No! That would be unthinkable! This time of year we should be focusing on God and giving Him gifts! Gifts of our souls! Gifts of our time! Gifts of our heart! Gifts of kindness. Gifts of spreading the Good News. Gifts of devotion. A gift of total surrender of ourselves, so that His spirit can overtake our bodies and He can be the sole owner of us.
God has given me so many gifts! The gift to live on earth, the gift of safeness and security, the gift of hope, the gift of faith, the gift of love! Why can't we return His love?
This year I want more out of Christmas. I want more spirituality, more connection with God. This year I want to celebrate Jesus's birth. I want to sing, scream, out to God and tell Him thank you, with all my soul, for sending his one and only begotton son to save me, to let me live. Every day should be about God, but we all know how hard that is! You would think we could all take a day or two from our busy, unGodly, lives just to say thanks.

If the only prayer you say in your whole life is "Thank you," that would suffice -Meister Eckhart, theologian
God gave us a gift of 86,400 seconds today. Have you used one to say 'thank you?' -William A. Ward, author

Friday, December 1

Devotion Mumblings

These are some random things that I've pulled from my Devotion's journal and from my devotional, My Utmost For His Highest (by Oswald Chambers). Also some other thoughts that I've been having lately. Some things I don't really know if I can explain, but I'll give it a shot.

"We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark; the real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light." -Plato

Can we ever know? The meaning of life, who created the universe (or if someone did), what life would be like if we weren't ourselves? Anything?

Have I failed? How do you know if you're good enough? How do you succeed? There is no manual on life. Some people say the Bible is our manual, but it's not. A manual is suppose to tell you exactly how to do things. It isn't a guideline with suggestions. How do I know what is right? How do I know that all this thought isn't for nothing? Why do we even bother?

There is absolutely no need to sin.

Say more by speaking less. I forget this verse, but it's something like 'A fool can talk forever and say nothing, but a wise man will only speak few words and explain everything.'
Here's one out of my NCV Revolve:
"The person with understanding is always looking for wisdom, bu the mind of a fool wanders everywhere...The smart person says very little, and one with understanding stays calm. Even fools seem to be wise if they keep quiet." Proverbs 17:24,27-28
Again I mentioned this on October 25th in a prayer:
Lord, limit my words. Countless times you have showed me that the fewer words you speak, the more it impacts others. Please keep this in my mind. Amen
And again on the 28th:
Lord, let me control my tongue and watch my mouth. "The quiet words of a wise person are better than the shouts of a foolish ruler." (Ecc. 9:17) Amen.

My Utmost: August 29th and Revolve Bible
"Real trust means letting go of your life and your heart and giving God control of them...People who trust God in this way are immovable, unshakeable. Now that you've put your trust in him, he makes his home in you....Common sense is not faith. Faith is not common sense...Faith must be tested. Believe steadfastly on Him and everything that challenges you will stregnthen your faith. Faith is absolute trust in God - trust that could never imagine that He would forsake us. (see Hebrews 13:5-6)

Prayer-September 9th, 2006-Hannah's Journal

Lord, no one can explain you. No one can put your being into words. No one can ever fully understand you. You are always undescribable. We cannot comprehend you or your being or your love or your wonder or your plans or your mercy or your determination or your stregnth or your beauty and splendor or your grace. Everything you offer is unconditional. Love, grace, mercy, power, stregnth, and the way you fill my heart. Those are the reasons that I truly love you. Amen.

Revolve Bible
"If you're "saved", you don't have to take the wrap for all the bad stuff you've done. God takes it instead."
That was so encouraging to me, it helped me get over a lot of the crappy feelings and things I had to deal with.

My Utmost: October 23
"God accepts nothing of the old life."
Just leave it all behind, and never, ever look back.

Journal - November 13th
How can I thank you?
There is no way.
Here, a gift perhaps?
My soul, for you!
Do with it what you like.
I trust you.
I thank you, Lord.
Amen.

My Utmost: November 16th
"Go through every day glorifying God, [even if] there is no witness, no limelight, and no one paying even the remotist attention to us. [Don't] look for a halo. If you are properly devoted to the Lord Jesus, you have reached the lofty height where no one would ever notice you personally. All that is noticed is the power of God coming through you all the time."

Prayer: November 19th
God, I thank you for the Cronins. I love them so much and I don't know what I'd do without them. They share such a special bond with my family, I never know how to describe our relationship. I love them, in a unique way that I don't hink I'll love anyone else like that. Thank you Lord, Amen.
The Cronins have always been a second family to me. I really can't describe how much I love them. They're such a huge part of my life that not many people know about. None of my friends have ever met them, and I can't believe that some people don't get the chance to have a relationship like that. I can't imagine my life without them.

My Utmost: November 29th
"Today [Jesus Christ] is being portrayed as the figurehead of a religion - a mere example. He is that, but He is infinatly more. He is salvation itself; He is the gospel of God!"


I won't bore you with any more in this post. If anyone accually read this, I hope you can make sense of some of the things that constantly float through my mind.
Hannah

Thursday, November 30

Getting Back Into This

I vow to myself that I will post, this coming weekend, December the 1st through 3rd, that I will post on this blog, probably to do with devotionals and journalling.
Hannah

Monday, October 30

Praise to The King!

Here are some Christian lyrics that have been flowing through my mind lately. A lot of stuff has happened and sometimes I just have to tune everything out and just listen to these songs in my head instead. Here they are...

Amazing Love
I'm forgiven, because You were forsaken
I'm accepted, You were condemned
I'm alive and well, Your Spirit is within me
Because you died and rose again

Amazing love, how can it be
That You my king would die for me?
Amazing love, I know it's true
And It's my joy to honor You
In all I do, I honor You

You are my king, You are my king
Jesus, You are my king, Jesus, You are my king

God Of Wonders
Lord of all creation.
Of water earth and sky.
The heavens are your tabernacle.
Glory to the Lord on high.

God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy.
The universe declares your majesty
You are holy, holy.

Lord of heaven and earth
Lord of heaven and earth

Early in the morning
I will celebrate the light
When I stumble in the darkness
I will call your name by night

Hallelujah, to the Lord of heaven and earth


Happy Song (I call it My Bursting Heart)
I could sing unending songs of how You saved my soul
I could dace a thousand miles because of Your great Love

My heart is bursting Lord to tell of all You've done
Of how You changed my life and wiped away the past
I want to shout it out from every roof top sing
For now I know that God is for me not against me

Everybody's singing now, cause were so happy
Everybody's dancing now,cause were so happy
If only I could see Your face, see You smiling over us
And unseen angels celebrate the joy thats in this place

Heart Of Worship
When the music fades and all is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring something that's of worth
That will bless Your heart

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
All about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the things I've made it
When it's all about You
All about You, Jesus

King of endless worth, no one could express
How much You deserve
Though I'm weak and poor, all I have is Yours
Every single breath

Here I Am To Worship
Light of the world
You stepped down into darkness
Opened my eyes let me see
Beauty that made this heart adore You
Hope of a life spent with You

Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that You're my God
You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me

King of all days
Oh so highly exalted
Glorious in Heaven above
Humbly You came to the earth You created
All for love's sake became poor

I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross

Trading My Sorrows
I'm trading my sorrow
I'm trading my shame
I'm laying them down for the joy of the Lord
I'm trading my sickness
I'm trading my pain
I'm laying them down for the joy of the Lord

And we say yes Lord, yes Lord, yes, yes, Lord
Yes Lord, yes Lord, yes, yes, Lord
Yes Lord, yes Lord, yes, yes, Lord. Amen

I'm pressed but not crushed
persecuted not abandoned
Struck down but not destroyed
I'm blessed beyond the curse
for His promise will endure
And His joy's gonna be my strength

Though the sorrow may last for the night
His joy comes with the morning...

Waves of Mercy (Every Move I Make)
Verse:
Every move I make, I make in You
You make me move, Jesus
Every breath I take, I breathe in You
Every step I take, I take in You
You are my way, Jesus
Every breath I take, I breathe in You.

Chorus:
Waves of mercy, waves of grace
Everywhere I look, I see Your face
Your love has captured me
Oh my God This love
How can it be

Bridge:
La la la la la la la,
La la la la la la la.
{I sing Na-s instead}


I've gotten all of these lyrics off this site.
Thanks,
Hannah

Sunday, October 29

An Unending Song I Will Sing

"Happy Song"
Chris Tomlin

Well I could sing unending songs
Of how you saved my soul
and I could dance a thousand miles
Because of your great love

C'mon everybody dance
Everybody dance

My heart is bursting Lord to
To tell of all you've done
Of how've you changed my life
And wiped away the past

Well, I want to shout it out
From every roof top sing
For now I know
That God is for me, not against me

I could sing unending songs
Of how you saved my soul
and I could dance a thousand miles
Because of your great love

My heart is bursting Lord to
To tell of all you've done
Of how've you changed my life
And wiped away the past

Well I want to shout it out
From every roof top sing
For now I know
That God is for me, not against me

Everybody's singin' now
Cuz we're so happy
Yeah,
Everybody's dancin' now
Cuz we're so happy

If only I could see your face,
See you smiling over us
And unseen angels celebrate
Hey! The joy is in this place
Yeah,
The joy is in this place

I could sing unending songs
Of how you've saved my soul
and I could dance a thousand miles
Because of your great love
and I could sing unending songs
Of how you've saved my soul
and I could dance a thousand miles
Because of your great love

Thursday, October 19

It's All About You!

Here's a song that I heard the other Sunday at Meagan's church that's been in my head all week.
Thanks for inviting me into your church, I really do love going, and I hope I can go more often.

"Heart Of Worship"

When the music fades and all is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring something that's of worth
That will bless Your heart

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
All about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the things I've made it
When it's all about You
All about You, Jesus

King of endless worth, no one could express
How much You deserve
Though I'm weak and poor, all I have is Yours
Every single breath

(Slow Chorus to fade)

Sunday, October 8

When I Write My Book...

I read this book...It was very strange. When I bought it, I thoought it would be a funny relief from all the horror/medical/crime books I've been reading lately. It turns out, it's just a creppy sex horror book that will haunt me in a different way than usual.
Sometimes I wish that books had ratings or limitations, like movies or internet porn sites. Like on the bottom of the back cover, would it kill them to put a little PG-14 logo? Maybe I should volunteer to read all the books in Coles and rate them myself...That would be a sweet job.
Anyway, I find it very disturbing sometimes when you think you've found the greatest book when all of a sudden you come accross some foul language or a sex scene or someone selling perscription drugs. What has become of our literature?
I just recently decided to go through my books, because the bookshelf was sagging so much, I was in fear of my life when I layed down to bed (I have shelves directly above my headboard). So I put in a box (soon to be given away or sold to the Owl's Nest) my old Everwood and Gossip Girl books. When I look back now, it seems so rediculus to have bought 11 GG books (at 15 bucks a piece!) when I knew they were filthy and filling my mind with nothing but sin.
So yes, my point in all of this was that if I were to ever write a book (oh poor souls who would have to read my mumbling), I would put a rating on the back cover, for all to see.

Last night I went to Reitmans with my mother. She needed new clothes for her trip to Montreal next week. I saw a counsellor (monitrice) there from French camp. I found it annoying that I could not get myself to speak French to her, even though I know I could have and I thought I was confident enough to, and she wouldn't have said anything if I did mess up some stupid grammar rule. How come even though I think I can be confident, under any sort of pressure (e.g. I didn't know she work at Reitmans and I didn't think I was going to see her there or speak French this weekend) I clam right up. I annoy myself sometimes.

To touch on a topic that we have been discussing on one of the other blogs I'm involved in (The Message of The Son, see link in sidebar), judgement seems to be a humungous deal in society lately. I know that I am constantly judging others, even though I try so hard to supress my inner feelings towards some individuals. I mean, everyone does judge to a certain extent, right? Whether you stereotype or judge or anything, you always get that feeling of guilt in the back of your mind, right? I really feell, deep down in my heart, that God is the only thing that should ever be judging. We work our whole lives to defend ourselves on Judgement day, but we don't realize that God is constantly judging us through others on an everyday basis. You forget to tell your sister that her boyfriend called. What does she think when he gets mad at her the next day? She would probably be more mad than understanding, right? Everyone judges constantly, but we must do our best to control our thoughts and actions and words. It is better to say nothing at all than to stick your nose where it doesn't belong.

Sorry about the rambling (agian). I don't think anybody accually reads the paragraphs in the middle of my posts anyway. :)
Hannah

Sunday, October 1

Jesus in song?

{{{Okay, I will tell you now, I think this is going to be a very long post, but I would still love it if you would read it}}}

I have always been amazed at the connection inbetween Christians and song. Think about it, for as long as anyone can remember we have sung in church and in all aspects of faith.
Camp Medley is my best example. Every year I looked forward to going because I knew that I would get wrapped up in a song and feel the presence of God. I knew I would, and sure enough, I do every time I go there and sing some of those awesome praise songs.
Sometimes I find songs a relief in church. Now, I haven't been to that many churches in my life, but I always found the sermons incredibly boring at my grandparent's church after I grew out of Sunday School. My only relief was the hymns. Sure, I couldn't say some of the words (what's with the "ths" on the end of everything?), but I still found that that was the only way I could truly connect with God in that particular church.
I just love thanking God, and a lot of the time I feel stupid thanking him over and over in prayer or in writing (like when I do devotionals). So I sing. I listen to songs, I sing songs, I think about singing songs, anything. I just love it. I try to listen to Christian music when I go to bed, when I walk to the bus stop in the morning, when I walk home afterschool, when I'm in a bad mood...If you're going to listen to music, why not have good music. I'm not saying I don't enjoy non-Christian music, because I do (and this is kinda what I'm getting to...) but I find Christian music just has so much more energy and feeling to it.
Okay, getting to this point of mine. I keep hearing lyrics from songs that I love. More and more, the lyrics jump out at me. I think, "Could this be about Jesus?" or "Does this have anything to do with faith?". Most of the time I know the artist didn't intend for it to be a Christian song, but almost anything can relate to faith.

Here is a song that I got into at the first of this year. I never really thought about the lyrics in conjunction with Christianity, but today I saw it in a new light. Here are the lyrics, so you can know what I'm talking about (or you can comment and say that I am making no sense at all)...

"A Walk Through Hell"
Say Anything
(Unknown)

And if I could swim, I'd swim out to you in the ocean,
Swim out to where you were floating in the dark.
And if I was blessed, I'd walk on the water you're breathing,
To lend you some air for that heaving sunken chest.

'Cause they chose you as the model for their empty little dreams,
With your new head and your legs spread like a filthy magazine.
And they hunt you, and they gut you, and you give in..

And if I was brave, I'd climb up to you on the mountain,
They led you to drink from their fountain, spouting lies.
And I'd slay the horrible beast they commissioned
To steer me away from my mission to your eyes.
And I'd stand there, like a soldier, with my foot upon his chest,
With my grin spread, and my arms out, in my bloodstained Sunday's best,
And you'd hold me, and remind you who you are.. under their shell...

(chorus)
I'd walk through hell for you, let it burn right through my shoes
These soles are useless without you
Through hell for you, let the torturing ensue;
My soul is useless without you...

And if they send a whirlwind, I'd hug it like a harmless little tree
Or an earthquake, I'd calm it, and I'd bring you back to me,
And I'd hold you in my weak arms like a first born

I'd walk through hell for you, let it burn right through my shoes,
these soles are useless without you
Through hell for you, let the torturing ensue
My soul is usless without you..
(through hell for you)
(through hell for you)
Without you, without you...
(through hell for you)
Without you
(through hell for you)

Now I've walked through hell for you
What's an adventurer to do,
But rest these feet at home with you?


Now I know this (obviously) is not a Christian song, and by no means am I implying that this is what our God is like. However...
"I'd walk through hell for you,[...]
These soles are useless without you
Through hell for you, let the torturing ensue;
My soul is useless without you..."

Did Jesus not walk through hell for us? He endured everything so that we could live good lives. If it weren't for God, his whole journey would have been useless. Jesus was tortured for us! For us! So that we could live our lives.
Also, throughout the song it talks about doing things for someone. Saving them, even. Did Jesus not come to this earth to save us, to show us, to teach us?
At the end of the song it says that the singer will rest his feet "at home with you". Well, did Jesus not go up to heaven and rest his feet with God?
A poster on www.songmeanings.net said:
"This song is all about seeing something more in a person than they see in themselves and wanting to be [their] saviour, helping them from the situation they have created for themself."

Maybe I am making something out of nothing, but...

Here is another song that I was just listening to...

"Right There Behind You (Mafia)"
Our Lady Peace
"Spiritual Machines" (2000)

You haven't seen the world outside for days
You sleep, you hope, you wait
Imagination disappears
And all the dreams you have you save
Confrontation like a mirror
They try to take your mind away

I don't know, but I believe in yesterday
And what it means
To bleed and know that you're okay

Are you waiting?
No matter what you say
No matter what you do
No matter what, I'm always right there behind you [x2]

Bombarded by the atmosphere
You breath, you choke, you breath again
Conversation disappears
You realize they're not your friends
The panic of the future rears
You dig, you jerk
You find another way

I don't know, but I believe in yesterday
And what it means
To bleed and know that you're okay

Are you waiting?
No matter what you say
No matter what you do
No matter what, I'm always right there behind you
No matter what you say
No matter what you do
No matter what, I'm always right there behind you

You open up my veins now i dont feel the same
no no no
You open up my brain but i wont be replaced

No matter what you say
No matter what you do
No matter what I'm always right there behind you


Isn't God always there? Hopefully, for all our sakes!
"No matter what you say
No matter what you do
No matter what, I'm always right there behind you"

I dunno, can anyone else see music the same way? Or am I just going crazy? I would really appreciate it if you would comment (it makes me feel like I didn't just spend 45 minutes talking to myself).

Love and Peace through Music
Hannah

Friday, September 22

Stolen Prayer

I stole this from another blog, but more importantly, no one can steal the power of prayer. No one can take away prayer, you can always pray, no matter what. Lately when I've been getting really fed up with school or tired or frusterated throughout the day, I just lean my head down and think about God. I don't usually pray, I just think. No one can ever take that from you. Not ever.



After being interviewed by the school administration, the eager teaching prospect said: "Let me see if I've got this right. You want me to gointo that room with all those kids, and fill their every waking moment with a love for learning, and I'm supposed to instill a sense of pride intheir ethnicity, modify their disruptive behavior, observe them for signs of abuse and even censor their T-shirt messages and dress habits.You want me to wage a war on drugs and sexually transmitted diseases, check their backpacks for weapons of mass destruction, and raisetheir self esteem. You want me to teach them patriotism, good citizenship, sportsmanship, fair play, how to register to vote, how to balancea checkbook, and how to apply for a job. I am to check their heads for lice, maintain a safe environment, recognize signs of antisocial behavior, make sure all students pass the provincial exams, even those who don't come to school regularly or complete any of their assignments. Plus, I am to make sure that all of the students with handicaps get an equal education regardless of the extent of their mental or physical handicap. I am to communicate regularly with the parents by letter, telephone, newsletter and report card. All of this I am to do with just a piece of chalk, a computer, a few books, a bulletin board, a big smile AND on a starting salary that almost qualifies my family for food stamps! You want me to do all of this, and then you tell me... I CAN'T PRAY!?!

Monday, September 4

Favourite Songs

Here are two lists: my Faves playlist and My Playlist on my iPod.

Faves:
Vindicated - Dashboard Confessional
Screaming Infidelities - Dashboard Confessional
A Walk Through Hell - Say Anything
Julia (Acoustic) - Our Lady Peace
4am - Our Lady Peace
Outside (Acoustic) - Aaron Lewis and Fred Durst
Theif - Our Lady Peace
Made To Heal - Our Lady Peace
The Scientist - Coldplay
Made of Steel - Our Lady Peace
As Lovers Go - Dashboard Confessional
A Lack Of Colour - Death Cab For Cutie
Grace Like Rain - Todd Agnew
Plus Rien - Les Cowboys Fringants
Alive With The Glory Of Love - Say Anything
Existentialism On Prom Night - Straylight Run
Swallowed In The Sea - Coldplay
Best Of You - Foo Fighters
All I Can Do - Chantal Kreviazuk
Stolen - Dashbaord Confessional


My Playlist:
Where'd You Go (Clean) - Fort Minor
Move Along - The All-American Rejects
Ready To Fall - Rise Against
Swing Life Away - Rise Against
How To Save A Life - The Fray
The Secrets In The Telling - Dashboard Confessional
Turn The Page - Bob Seager
Natural Anthem - The Postal Service
Your Ex-Lover Is Dead - Stars
Seasons Of Love - RENT Cast
Times Like These - Foo Fighters
Such Great Hights - The Postal Service
Letters To You - Finch
The Grace - Neverending White Lights
Over My Head (Cable Car) - The Fray
Unsaid - The Fray
Again I Go Unnoticed - Dashboard Confessional


Well, that's what I'm listening to, along with some new Christian songs...Give me some comments!
Hannah

Forgiveness and Jellyfish

I just found the bible verse one of my favourite songs is named. "Seventy Times 7" by Brand New is a reference to how many times you should forgive someone. Jesus told Matthew this in Matthew 18:22...check it out for yourself.
Anyway, here are the lyrics (I may have posted them before...)

"Seventy Times 7"
Brand New
"Your Favourite Weapon" (2001)

Back in school they never taught us what we needed to know,
like how to deal with despair, or someone breaking your heart.
For twelve years I've held it all together but a night like this is begging to pull me apart.
I played it quiet, left you deep in conversation.
I felt uncool and hung out around the kitchen.
I remember I kept thinking that I know you never would,
and now I know I want to kill you like only a best friend could.

Everyone's caught on to everything you do
Everyone's caught on to.

As if this happening wasn't enough I got to go
and write a song just to remind myself how bad it sucked.
Ignore the sun, the cover's over my head.
I wrote a message on my pillow that says, "Jesse, stay asleep in bed."
So don't apologize. I hope you choke and die.
Search your cell for something with which to hang yourself.
They say you need to pray if you want to go to heaven
but they don't tell you what to say when your whole life has gone to hell.

Everyone's caught on to everything you do
Everyone's caught on to
And everyone's caught on to everything you do (And I can't let you, let me down again.)
Everyone's caught on to (And I can't let you, let me down again)

So, is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with.
Cause I've seen more spine in jellyfish.
I've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids.
Have another drink and drive yourself home.
I hope there's ice on all the roads.
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt,
and again when your head goes through the windshield.

And is that what you call tact?
You're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back.
So let's end this call, and end this conversation.
and is that what you call a getaway?
well tell me what you got away with.
cause you left the frays from the ties you severed
when you say best friends means friends forever

So, is that what you call a getaway?
Well tell me what you got away with.
Cause I've seen more spine in jellyfish.
I've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids.
Have another drink and drive yourself home.
I hope there's ice on all the roads.
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt,
and again when your head goes through the windshield.

Everyone's caught on to everything you do (And I can't let you, let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to (And I can't let you, let me down again)
And everyone's caught on to everything you do (And I can't let you, let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to (And I can't let you, let me down again)

Tuesday, August 29

Momentary Happiness or Long-Term Faith?

The thing is, a lot of things that make you happy can be really bad. But then again, they are only a momentary happiness. Getting a new pair of jeans, listening to a new song, laughing with friends, none of those are "bad" things (unless you stole the jeans, downloaded the music and were laughing at a dirty joke...) but they are only momentary and after a while that happiness rubs off.
The same things happens with God. I have a really good connection with God about once or twice a year, but then that feeling of jubilee fades. The feeling is still inside me, but I find that I am not yearning for God and his acceptance, but the feeling of pure joy that I receive when I connect with him. I am not yearning for Jesus, but for a feeling of happiness and acceptance and love.
We have to teach ourselves to want to know God. When you learn to love someone you don't dread going to a movie with them, you wait and anticipate that few yours. The same thing will happen with God once you learn to love him and truly appreciate his true glory. You will love going to church or youth group (or Camp Medley).
Sometimes I yearn for relationships with my relatives or my friends or people who don't even know me. But God knows me, and he wants me to succeed in knowing him. He is patient and kind and loving and merciful. Why wouldn't you want to date God? Why wouldn't you want to talk to him constantly? Why wouldn't you want him to be in every aspect of your life?
Why do so many people give up on God before they even get a chance to know him? Faith. Trust.
God always delievers. He is always there. Even though you don't always get what you ask for doesn't mean that God doesn't exist.
Read his word. Look at all the promises he gave us, and how many have already been fulfilled and will continually be fulfilled.
In John 14:1 Jesus says to his disciples:
"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me."
Isiah 28:16 says:
"See! I put in Jerusalem a Stone that people will trip over. It is a Rock that will make them fall. But the person who puts his trust in the Rock (Christ) will not be put to shame."
Romans 15:13 says:
"Our hope comes from God. May He fill you with joy and peace because of your trust in Him. May your hope grow stronger by the power of the Holy Spirit."


Love and be loved.
Trust and be trusted.
Love God.
Trust God.

That's it.

Hannah

Tuesday, August 1

Le Dernier Humain De La Terre

My prof at camp made us listen to this song after I told him I liked the music video. The lyrics are really powerful, so translate them if you must.
I am going to try to get back into spreading the lyrics again. Don't give up on me yet!
-Hannah


"Plus Rien"
Les Cowboys Fringants
"La Grand Messe" (2006)

Il ne reste que quelques minutes à ma vie
Tout au plus quelques heures je sens que je faiblis
Mon frère est mort hier au milieu du désert
Je suis maintenant le dernier humain de la terre

On m'a décrit jadis, quand j'étais un enfant
Ce qu'avait l'air le monde il y a très très longtemps
Quand vivaient les parents de mon arrière grand-père
Et qu'il tombait encore de la neige en hiver

En ces temps on vivait au rythme des saisons
Et la fin des étés apportait la moisson
Une eau pure et limpide coulait dans les ruisseaux
Où venaient s'abreuver chevreuils et orignaux

Mais moi je n'ai vu qu'une planète désolante
Paysages lunaires et chaleur suffocante
Et tous mes amis mourir par la soif ou la faim
Comme tombent les mouches jusqu'à ce qu'il n'y ait plus rien...
Plus rien...
Plus rien...

Il ne reste que quelques minutes à ma vie
Tout au plus quelques heures je sens que je faiblis
Mon frère est mort hier au milieu du désert
Je suis maintenant le dernier humain de la terre

Tout ça a commencé il y a plusieurs années
Alors que mes ancêtres étaient obnubilés
Par des bouts de papier que l'on appelait argent
Qui rendaient certains hommes vraiment riches et puissants

Et ces nouveaux dieux ne reculant devant rien
Étaient prêts à tout pour arriver à leurs fins
Pour s'enrichir encore ils ont rasé la terre
Pollué l'air ambiant et tari les rivières

Mais au bout de cent ans des gens se sont levés
Et les ont avertis qu'il fallait tout stopper
Mais ils n'ont pas compris cette sage prophétie
Ces hommes-là ne parlaient qu'en termes de profits

C'est des années plus tard qu'ils ont vu le non-sens
Dans la panique ont déclaré l'état d'urgence
Quand tous les océans ont englouti les îles
Et que les inondations ont frappé les grandes villes

Et par la suite pendant toute une décennie
Ce fut les ouragans et puis les incendies
Les tremblements de terre et la grande sécheresse
Partout sur les visages on lisait la détresse

Les gens ont dû se battre contre les pandémies
Décimés par millions par d'atroces maladies
Puis les autres sont morts par la soif ou la faim
Comme tombent les mouches jusqu'à ce qu'il n'y ait plus rien...
Plus rien...
Plus rien...

Mon frère est mort hier au milieu du désert
Je suis maintenant le dernier humain de la terre
Au fond l'intelligence qu'on nous avait donnée
N'aura été qu'un beau cadeau empoisonné

Car il ne reste que quelques minutes à la vie
Tout au plus quelques heures je sens que je faiblis
Je ne peux plus marcher j'ai peine à respirer
Adieu l'humanité...
Adieu l'humanité...

Tuesday, May 30

Sorry?

I may be alive with the glory of love, but I am dead with emotion.

Monday, May 29

Is This Hell?

"A Walk Through Hell"
Say Anything
(Unreleased)


And if I could swim
I'd swim out to you in the ocean
Swim out to where you were floating, in the dark
And if I was blessed
I'd walk on the water you're breathing
To lend to some air for that heaving, sunken chest

Cause they chose you, as the model
For their empty little dreams
With your new head, and your legs spread
Like a filthy magazine
And they hunt you, and they gut you
And you give in

And if I was brave
I'd climb up to you on the mountain
They led you to drink from their fountain, spouting lies
And I'd slay
The horrible beast they comissioned
Steer me away from my mission, to your eyes

And I'd stand there, like a soldier
With my foot upon his chest
With my grin spread and my arms out
And my bloodstained Sunday's best
And you'd hold me, and I'd remind you who you are
Under their shell

CHORUS:
I'd walk through hell for you
Let it burn right through my shoes
These soles are useless without you
Through hell for you
Let the torturing into my soul
It's useless without you

And if they send a whirlwind
I'd hug it, like a harmless little dream
Or an earthquake, I'd calm it, and I'd bring you back to me
And I'd hold you, in my weak arms, like a first born

CHORUS:
I'd walk through hell for you
Let it burn right through my shoes
These soles are useless without you
Through hell for you
Let the torturing into my soul
It's useless without you

Now I've walked through hell for you
What's an adventurer to do,
But rest these feet at home with you

Take Me Away

What is going on?

I have no idea.

Why am I feeling this?

What am I feeling?

No words.

I needed to update. So here.

?
Hannah

Monday, May 22

The End of the Good Times

Hey.

Well, the rugby season is over.

noooooooooooooooooo

It's so sad.

And no jackets.

I am seriously thinking about asking around about the under 19 league that they're starting up. Now that I've gotten into a sport, I really want to do it.
But that would require fixing my cleats. Darn.

Anyways, keep on commenting, I love them.

Hannah

Saturday, May 13

Mix of...Everything

OKay, yeah. We lost our first rugby game today. I got to play. meh. My dad had this genious idea that I should join the city team. Meh.

Thanks for the comments Meags, I appreciate them. Lets me know that I really am not just talking to myself. Well, maybe I still am, but whatever, eh?

So I was looking through some of my old posts, and didn't get that far because I found this "To Buy" list, so I decided to update it:
1-Birkenstocks -(Decided against them)-
2-May Rally Money -(Not Going)-
3-Laptop (HA!) -(Yeah, still dreaming)-
4-Spring Formal Ticket CHECK
5-Spring Formal Dress/Skirt/etc. CHECK
6-Spring Formal Shoes CHECK
7-Rugby Stuff? CHECK -(Except Jacket...Are we still getting those?)-
8-Bedskirt for my new bed CHECK
9-New sheets for new bed (Nope...)
10-Desk CHECK
11-Dresser -(Still working on that one)-
12-Bedside table CHECK

So here is my new list:
1-Laptop (meh, I can dream)
2-Rugby Jacket
3-Dresser
4-Bed Linens
5-Board Shorts
6-Haircut
7-iPod (dreams....)
8-HairDye

I'll keep you posted on that Laptop/iPod dream, eh?

Quote of Today:
Frustration is commonly the difference between what you would like to be and what you are willing to sacrifice to become what you would like to be.
- Unknown

Like rugby games.

I liked today's sermon. I find it so extremely hard to remain pure and remember God, as I am not usually surrounded by other Christians.

Don't Forget to Wash!
"Blessed are those who wash their robes, that they may have the right to the tree of life and that they may enter the city by the gates. Outside are the dogs and sorcerers and fornicators and murderers and idolaters, and every one who loves and practices falsehood." Revelation 22:14-15

Harry decided to drive for miles and miles. He had some vacation time left, and decided to just drive until he became tired. After nine long hours of driving, Harry was exhausted, and was ready to get a hotel room, take a shower, and eat. Upon trying to get a room, however, Harry was told that although they could offer him a bed and food, none of their rooms had baths. Harry could not believe his ears! He went to every motel and hotel in the small town, and it was the same story each time.


In a state of extreme bewilderment, Harry slowly walked down main street, scratching his head and trying to figure out how on earth people were expected to stay clean if they could not bathe. As he strolled in to the more populated main thoroughfare, Harry could not believe his eyes and nose! There was a reeking odor in the air, and the men, women and children he passed on the street were utterly filthy!

Harry felt like he was going mad! He simply could not understand how or why this could happen. It was as if they didn't even realize what an awful state they were in.

In a state of shock, Harry ran to his car and sped off, driving nine hours all the way back home. Exhausted, Harry climbed into his nice clean bed, and immediately fell in to a deep sleep.

"Harry," a voice said, "What you just saw today is what I see on a regular basis. People may use soap and water on their bodies, but as you know, we are more than just physical beings. They remember to use deodorant and soap, but their hearts, minds and souls remain impure due to the rancid effect of sin. You do not see this, but I do, for I see beyond the flesh and into man's very essence. I have provided a way, through My son, Christ Jesus, that man may be cleansed of his sins and purified, but sadly, man often prefers to turn a deaf ear to this truth. The end result is death."

Harry opened his eyes. The room was filled with the bright morning sun.

"Man! What a dream that was!" he said out loud. "I can't wait to tell everyone about it; it seemed so real!"

From that moment on, Harry was a changed man. For once in his life he fully understood the destructive effect of sin. It was now his new goal to share what he had learned with others.

For Harry, the above story was a dream, but Christ's love and mercy to those who call on Him in repentance is real.


(All Credit DailyWisdom.GospelCom.Net)



Love and Peace

Hannah

Sunday, April 23

Author Of Time

Who knows what is healthy and what is not?
Can you ever rely on a source?
Do you have trust in humanity?

Sorry I haven't posted in so long. I don't really like excuses, and you don't care anyway, so let's just get on with it, shall we?

Quote of the day:
May the road rise to meet you May the wind be always at your back May the sun shine warm upon your face And the rain fall soft upon your fields And until we meet again May God hold you in the palm of His hand.
- Irish blessing

Christianity is so widely spead, I still find it hard to believe. I mean, every culture/religion has some sort of God. There are so many prayers, blessings, proverbs, sayings...that can it all possibly come back to only one god?

Today's message really does apply to a lot of people these days. I can admit that I am one of these people who live my day, rarely thinking of God, push myself to the brink of exhaustion, and then repeat the cycle every day.x

Twenty-four Hour Days and Stress - Message #198

"There is never enough time in the day for my work. We should have twenty five hours in each day." But God gave us twenty-four hours each day to accomplish our tasks and oh how we chafe under the restraint. Then we try to accomplish more than time allows. We place ourselves under huge amounts of self-imposed stress.

As we do so, we also fight against God. We fail to recognize it cannot be God's will to pack more into twenty-four hour day than will fit. Because we don't like God's time constraints, we push ourselves. We get up early. We go to bed late. Yet the list of work grows and stress grows too.

Look at what the Bible says, "It is vain for you to rise up early, to retire late, to eat the bread of painful labors" (Psalm 127:2). The word "vain" means "deception." It is a deception to get up early, to cram the day with activities, to retire late, and to see each day as a day of "painful labor," only to repeat the cycle again. Why? You will not receive that for which you work. Because you are forgetting God, you are not using each day properly. Psalm 118:24 says, "This is the day the Lord has made." Remembering the Author of time and setting priorities will reduce stress.


All credit DailyWisdom.GospelCom.Net


Love and Peace

Forever and Never

The End

Hannah

Friday, April 7

Magic Portals

"Resolve to be tender with the young, compassionate with the aged, sympathetic with the striving, and tolerant with the weak and the wrong. Sometime in your life you will have been all of these."
-Bob Goddard

Treat others how you want to be treated.
Don't just skim over that sentence. Really think about it! Then, put it into action! How many times have you said to yourself that today you will really change. Then you forgot, didn't you?
Anyways. I don't know what I am talking about.

Wow. I liked today's sermon...just because it was so random and reminded me of me.

New Puppy on a Roll

Big adventure at the Rhea house this week. We just took in a spaniel-mix puppy. You can't pick up a tennis ball or stuffed animal in here that doesn't make a slobber-log squishy sound. The entire upstairs smells a little like puppy breath. Every square inch has been sufficiently sniffed, then thoroughly chewed and slobber-covered.

It's an adjustment for all of us, granted, but the biggest adjustment is on the part of the two cats, who haven't entirely unpuffed since the pup lumbered through the front door. I think I actually saw the spaniel grin when she tried to greet the kitties. I didn't have a puppy language interpreter, but she seemed to me to be saying, "Hey, those look really chewy! I wonder how far that fat one can roll." Fortunately for the chewy cats, the puppy seems to think the stairs are some sort of magic portal and won't even go near them.

So the downstairs has officially been claimed by the cats and they're setting up a little kitty kingdom. You have to go through Cat Customs and prove you're not even remotely canine to even go down there. They're checking I.D.s.

Speaking of I.D.s, when we've given our lives to Christ, we become part of His kingdom. Not kitty related. Our identity is in Him. No need for a magic portal. We have Jesus! No big dog fear either- no need to fear anything at all. The God of the universe is on our side. His kingdom is the most glorious place to be.

I could write about it all day. As a matter of fact, I would write more, but I just heard a weird sound. Does it make a weird noise when a fat cat rolls?

All Credit Dailywisdom.Gospelcom.net


I'm going to Meagan's church Easter production with Lauren and (maybe) Nick again this year. It will hopefully be a blast...I don't get to hang out with Nick at all anymore and I never see Lauren outside of school (and now Rugby I guess).

Anyway, I'm off to supper. Have fun.

Love and Peace
Forever and Never
Hannah

Sunday, April 2

Life: Bed, Cleats, Kids, etc

I got my new bed today. It is really big. It has consumed my room. I have no desk, no dresser and my room (and everywhere else I had to move my stuff) looks like a tornado hit.

But my bed looks really cool.

Sorry I haven't updated in a while...I have no computer now, so I kinda forgot about the blog (gasp!).

I got cleats and a mouthguard last Thursday...I'm excited for our next Rugby practice tomorrow. I wish I knew more about our schedule though...

I babysatt Thursday night and last night, so I am just that much closer to being able to afford anything on my To Buy list. Since I haven't posted it yet, I will make a quick summary of everything I can remember. Here goes:
1-Birkenstocks
2-May Rally Money
3-Laptop (HA!)
4-Spring Formal Ticket
5-Spring Formal Dress/Skirt/etc.
6-Spring Formal Shoes
7-Rugby Stuff? (I dunno what else I'll have to buy)
8-Bedskirt for my new bed
9-New sheets for new bed
10-Desk
11-Dresser
12-Bedside table
and everything else I can't remember.
As you can see, nothing is cheap on that list. Darn.

Well, I have got to go to supper, but if I get time I'll do the quote/sermon thing later tonight.

Lots of Love! (and Peace too, I guess)
Hannah

Saturday, March 25

Not Anti-Change, But Anti-Fear

Oh man.

It's been a long day, and it is only 11:14. In the morning.

Here's today's quote. It's rather "quirky". That is such a funny word.
"Computers are unreliable, but humans are even more unreliable."
-Gilb



Meh, not too deep or thought-provoking.

Here is the semon-thingy...It's about one of my favourite topics. The words highlighted are the ones that stuck out the most to me.

Positive Change

"... let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will know what God wants you to do, and you will know how good and pleasing and perfect his will really is." Romans 12:2

Change can be frightening at times because it entails a breaking away from the familiar in order to step into something new. That new thing may be a relocation to another state, joining a new club, meeting new friends, or trying a new hair style.

Think of how giving in to ungodly acts can change someone. Consider the person who steals from an employer, resulting in the loss of a job. Or what about the individual who gives into lust by getting unhealthily close to a member of the opposite sex, then having an extra-marital affair that ends up destroying a marriage?

God does call us to change; to open our wings like a butterfly who has transformed from a caterpillar, and broken free of his cocoon. God desires this beautiful transformation so that we can live up to the potential He calls us to: new creations who thirst for God's good and pleasing ways. Our Creator wants our desire to be to please Him, not man. What society may deem as acceptable is not always okay is God's eyes. Man may say it's okay to have a little fling as long as no one finds out, but God defines adultery as sin. So too does man often support a spirit of vengeance by wanting to return jab for jab and blow for blow, but God calls us to love one another and treat each other as we wish to be treated.

While change can be disconcerting at times, there is no need to fear it with our Heavenly Father. He is our loving Dad who only wants what is best for us so that we may not only be approved in His sight, but live more joyously and peacefully.

Won't you take His hand and make a positive change today?


(All credit to DailyWisdom.GospelCom.Net)



Love and Peace

Forever and Never

Hannah

Friday, March 24

You Can't Just Live

"Under everyone's hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved"

-In an e-mail from Emlyn

I think that this perfectly represents me.
Don't you think?
No, didn't imagine.

QOTD:
"The unexamined life is not worth living."
-Socrates



You can't just live. You have to have a purpose, you have to have some kind of drive. Some passion. Some driving force.
What it is is up to you.
Decide quickly, time's a wastin'.
Run!

Meh
Kristy is coming over tonight...We're going to the Sugarbush breakfast tomorrow...It should be fun (and long...), but that's okay. I think.

It's been a long week and I'm afraid their won't be that much relief this weekend. After the breakfast, Heather has a party to go to, then we will be racing off to Moncton for the weekend.
Oh man.

(Give Me Stregnth, Give Me Hope, Give Me Courage)

Love and Peace
Forever and Never
Hannah

Wednesday, March 22

Five Things

There doesn't seem to be a quote of the day today either.
So here is a line from the Shakespearean play, "A Midsummer Night's Dream" that we are studying in school (and this quotation was on my test today):

"Lord, what fools these mortals be!"
-Puck
(W. Shakespeare)

If you think about it, we are just wandering around this world (no, Meagan, not in someone's an...) trying to figure out what to do. We are fools in love, as it makes us do many stupid things. All around, man itself is foolish. Doing things for praise, to fit in, to be different....Does it really matter in the end?

So I am back. I went to Youth Group and the Co-op for a while....I dunno when I started this post, but it is 9:10 now. And I am still avoiding homework. Ugh.

In this life we are forever being tested. In science class, in gym, in the hallways at school, at home, at church, in the park, at the bus stop, at the mall, everywhere! But it is always God, our concience, testing us.
It doesn't always seem fair. God tests us constantly, but we are told "Do not test the LORD your God" (Deut. 6:16 NIV). Does God just not want us to test him because he can't always follow through?

Here is something that I took from Andrew Hodge's blog. (Yeah, if you read this, I am not some stalker, I accually went to Camp Medley when you were on staff their and I just recently found Adam O's blog, and he has a link to your page....okay, I was really bored!)

A year ago I....

A Year Ago, I:
1. Who can remember this far back?
2. Did not have my Cargo pants
3. Gave up destructive behavior
4. Was in grade 9
5. Went to French Camp at UdeM

Years Ago, I:
1. Was still younger than everyone else
2. Found God
3. Cryed myself to sleep
4. Had a lot of problems (more or less than now, I do not know)
5. Moved...across the river

Yesterday I:
1. Forgot to brush my teeth in the morning
2. Put new PETA stickers on my locker door
3. Got a new seating plan in Math
4. Studied for today's Science test
5. Went to the movies

Today, I:
1. Woke up late
2. Wrote a Science test
3. Ran a Beep Test in Gym
4. Wrote an English test
5. Rode the bus home, went to the Co-Op, Went to YouthGroup, and am still successfully avoiding my English short story homework

Five Songs I Know All the Words To, Even Without the Music:
(wow...a lot...I think...)
1. The Scientist
2. Made To Heal
3. The Love Song
4. Amazing Grace (Jars of Clay version)
5. Blessed Be The Name of The Lord

Five things I'd buy With $100,000:
1. A bigger iPod
2. A sponcer child
3. new underwear
4. more mechanical pencils
5. new blades for my razer

Five Songs You've been listening to Lately:
1. Drops of Jupiter
2. Comin' Home
3. Casey's Song
4. The Valley Song (Sing of Your Mercy)
5. Bury Your Own

Top Five Locations I'd Like To Run Away To:
1. Meagan's house
2. The Northside
3. Vancouver
4. Montreal
5. Toronto

Five details about you:
1. I almost always have an opinion.
2. I cannot sing well, but I love to sing my soul out.
3. I think.
4. I cannot sit still for very long if I am bored. I doodle, play with my ring, jiggle my leg...
5. I tend to have a lot of mixed emotions.

Five details about your appearance right now:
1. Wearing my Camo pants!
2. My hair is icky and has a pony tail bump
3. My sweater shrunk, and it is very annoying
4. I am only wearing a ring and a watch (and my WWJD braclet), but no earrings or neckalace
5. I ripped a button off of my camo pants yesterday, and now I can't find it.

Five things that everyone should know about you:
1. I hate fighting. I cannot stand it.
2. I am trying to live a better life through God, and please respect that.
3. I think a lot, and usually need a bunch of alone time.
4. I try not to judge people, and expect you to do the same to me.
5. I am a strong believer in the Golden Rule.

Five favorite movies:
1. A Walk To Remember
2. Remember The Titans
3. The Lion King
4. Save The Last Dance
5. Finding Nemo

Five things that make you happy:
1. singing
2. babies
3. sitting in unawkward silence with friends
4. laying in the rain
5. Meagan

I have recently been tracking down some people's blogs (like I would accually have the courage to talk to them!) from places like Camp Medley and Big Lake Camp and that. I have had a little success, but am still looking for more people (and their blogs)!
Post comments please!

Well, I think that that will be all for tonight. I wish I could avoid Shakespeare for another hour, but I really can't. Talk to y'all later, eh?

Love and Peace
Forever and Never
Hannah

Monday, March 20

~You don't know what it feels like~

I don't remember what song those lyrics are from, but man that line is stuck in my head!

I think I might title my posts with song lyrics from now on...I never know what to call anything, and since music is so much a part of my life, and there is never any shortage of it, it seems like a perfect fit, eh?

I went to see the guidance counsellor today. He was pretty helpful, but he made me realize that I have a lot more desiding and a lot more work to do! Ugh.

Here is today's quote...it's kinda funny and witty, but I have no idea how I would go about reflecting on it. So here it is anyway for your viewing pleasure:

"Marriages may be made in heaven, but man is responsible for the maintenance work."
-Changing Times

Who/What is Changing Times? I dunno. Don't ask.

I didn't particularly like the sermon-thingy today.

Oh, and I should talk to Meagan about doing a new devotional with me.
I'll be starting it pretty shortly, so if you read this before I remember to ask/tell you, call me okay?

Love and Peace
Hannah

PS- I was going to comment on TC's blog, but I never know what to say! ERG! :D

Sunday, March 19

Time Flies When You're Dreading Life

Sometimes I wish I could just exist, but not be.

Ugh.

I got 20 of 30 questions right on my Mensa Brain Quiz. lol. Like I could be smart.

I have really, really started to like City And Colour. Maybe I might buy the CD...Well, maybe I'll ask for it for my birthday.

It's in October, by the way.

On to the quote.

Hm. There doesn't seem to be a quote for today.

Okay, I will post one of my favourite quotes then.

"Not all who wander are lost."
-JRR Tolkien

Aren't we all just wandering around this earth, trying to figure out how we fit in?

I am.

Here is today's sermon-thingy:

One Sacrifice, One Testament - Message #346

When some people look at the Bible, they think the God of the Old Testament is different from the God of the New Testament. All they see in the Old Testament is those bloody sacrifices. And all they see in the New Testament is God's love displayed in Christ. But these are really two different perspectives.

When there is an accident, each witness usually has a little different perspective on what has taken place. Because they are standing in various places, each one sees the event a little differently. Each one may observe something that others do not notice. As a result, each witness puts his own spin on the story.

We realize there are no contradictions. There are viewpoints from various eyewitnesses. It is the same with the Bible. The people in the Old Testament had an entirely different viewpoint than the people in the New Testament. The Old Testament saints looked forward to the coming of Christ. These people heard the promises of God concerning His coming. They worshipped God in a magnificent tabernacle. Later they worshipped in an ornate temple overlaid with gold, which pictured the New Testament church. They saw the death of Christ pictured in the temple sacrifices.

Today, we have a different perspective. Christ came as promised. The ceremonies of the Jewish rituals are fulfilled. The sacrifice of Christ is accomplished. Those commissioned by God to write in the New Testament did two things. The gospel writers recorded the history of Christ's work. Others interpreted His life and work. Remembering these different perspectives helps us understand the Bible.

(Credit-DailyWisdom.GospelCom.Net)

But what about Christ coming again?
He was promised to us. God said that he will return.
It's been an awful long time, and he still isn't here.
But you're coming, right?
Soon?
I hope so.

L+P
Hannah

Saturday, March 18

Earliness

I got up way too early today. Mum had to go to work, and Heather is at camp, so I went with Dad. At 7:45. In the morning.
Ugh, I've got the whole day ahead of me yet.

Anyways, here is a quote:
(it's not today's quote, but I love it, so I'm posting it here instead, okay?)

"Vision is the art of seeing things invisible." - Jonathan Swift

I just simply love this quote. I like how it is unexplainable, but how it means a lot too, you know?

Today's sermon had a good message, so here it is:

Simply, Love

"Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the law?" Jesus replied, "Love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like unto it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' All the law and the prophets hang on these two commandments." Matthew 22:35-40

What a simple act Christ asks of us, to love God and each other; yet so many people find this hard or even impossible to do. Their reasons are many and varied.

"I won't love something or someone that I can't see, says one man.

"My neighbor is an idiot! I can't love someone like that!" remarks another individual."

If love is such a pure, natural and good thing, then why is it so hard for so many of us to do? In my view it is because man is a proud creature. We want to believe we are self-sufficient enough to be our own god, so that we only have to answer to one being: ourselves. Pride also disallows us from showing our fellow man the grace to be imperfect, even though we ourselves are not perfect. When a neighbor, associate or family relation offends us, we may feel like hating, rather than loving this person enough to pray for him or her.

Loving each other does not mean we must act as doormats who take on another's verbal or physical abuses. What it does mean is, as the verse above suggests, we should treat others as we wish to be treated. In other words, if we want others to offer us mercy and grace when we have done something wrong, we must likewise be willing to offer them that same grace. If God forgives us, we too must forgive others.

Isn't it ironic that many people who have ignored God, when faced before immediate crisis, usually cry out to Him in despair?

"Oh my God!" shouts one woman who just found out her son had been shot.

Another person cries out, "Save me God!" when he is stuck in a terrible fire.

Since God IS love, love is the perfect response. Today, won't you bring love into your life by inviting God in to your heart?


All credit to DailyWisdom.GospelCom.Net


Love and Peace to you all
Hannah

Wednesday, March 15

Quotes Are Taking Over The World

Sense of "flow" -- being so joyously immersed in a task that the rest of the world seems to drop away: Perfect concentration without any sense of effort.
-Clive Thompson
(Writer/Journalist)

Doesn't that make sence?

And you wonder why I'm so deep.

Oh, and Meagan, the guy who said this isn't dead. So maybe it's not all that important. Yet.

No L + No P
Hannah

Oh Man

I don't really feel like talking about today...so here's the quote.

One of the most lasting pleasures you can experience is the feeling that comes over you when you genuinely forgive an enemy - whether he knows it or not.
- O.A. Battista

I have a real problem with forgiveness....mostly with myself. I don't really have that many enemies I don't think. And I don't really have any particular reason to be cross with them anyway. So this quote seems really deep and that it would affect your life, but not mine. Hopefully it helps you more, eh?

Today's semon was rather scary. I know I am under quite a bit of stress, but I didn't know that all of these side affects can be because of stress (I seem to have quite a few of them). Time to re-think life I guess...I really don't know. Anyway, here it is for you.

Stressed Out Computer

My daughter's laptop had locked up. It could be turned on, but froze up soon after that. She was frantic. Inside were thirteen chapters of a novel she hadn't printed yet.

In the three weeks that elapsed between when she first called the Geek Squad (computer fixers) and when a technician was actually able to come and take a look at it, it had regained some of its energy and could briefly start up again. The guy said it had probably been stressed out. "The rest probably did it good. Its systems were overtaxed."

Who knew that even the trusty computer needed a break?

Long term, she needed to do some things to prevent the problem in the future, such as removing some of the unneeded programs. She needed to keep the thing cooler, either by using a little fan device, or providing ventilation between the bottom of the laptop and the desk. She needed to give it more memory and power. She needed to back up her critical files every day.

The human parallels are obvious. If the venerable computer needs to take a break, how much more so is this need in humans? The Geek guy warned her that she had probably shortened the computer's life by overtaxing it so much. It may only have a year to live.

Stress can also shorten the lives of humans. It depends on how we handle the stress, and whether we give ourselves a chance to relax afterward.

An inch-thick laptop computer is capable of processing an awful lot of x's and o's (the basic language/structure of computer thinking), and these days does so in pretty fancy formats. Lest you think her laptop was a lemon, she had recently acquired a digital camera and of course had loaded the laptop with too many memory-hogging photos. Add to that, music. Then there was a budding novel of an million words or so.

So it is with the human psyche and brain. We can talk on the phone, type, eat, instant message a half dozen friends at once, and cook two pots on the stove for supper, all more or less at the same time. We can get up at 3:45 a.m. and work on a concrete floor to ship 1000 parts out of a warehouse for ten hours. But we can't keep doing that seven days a week, 24 hours a day. We've got to have rest. We can say yes to being on every committee for church, work or club activities, but then we tend to snap at our kids, friends, and the dog. In time, we burn out, like my daughter's computer almost did.

What are some of the human effects of stress?

The WebMD says that stress without relief leads to disturbances in the body's internal balance or equilibrium; physical symptoms can include headaches, upset stomach, high blood pressure, chest pain, and problems sleeping. "Research suggests that stress also can bring on or worsen certain symptoms or disease," says Jerome F. Kiffer of the Cleveland Clinic Foundation. "Stress is linked to six of the leading causes of death: heart disease, cancer, lung ailments, accidents, cirrhosis of the liver and suicide." (www.webmd.com)

This information has been around for a long time, but I was interested in more recent information regarding the link between stress and coritsol. Experts say that the production of cortisol is a natural response to stress, but you want your body then to relax so that levels can return to normal. For those who operate continuously under stress, cortisol can have these negative effects: thinking can be impaired; thyroid function is suppressed, blood sugar gets out of balance, blood pressure goes up, lowered immunity and inflammatory responses in the body, and "an increase in abdominal fat, which is associated with a greater amount of health problems than fat deposited in other areas of the body. Some of the health problems associated with increased stomach fat are heart attacks, strokes, the development of, higher levels of 'bad' cholesterol (LDL) and lower levels of 'good' cholesterol." (www.about.com)

I have two of the above physical symptoms (headaches and problems sleeping) so it's not that I have conquered stress, but I'm working on it. The good Lord wants us to take care of the bodies given to us.



All credit to DailyWisdom.GospelNet.Com



Love and Peace

Hannah

Tuesday, March 14

Again

So I'm posting again today. I want to keep my God stuff different from my lyrics. Yep.

So, if you wanna you can read all of my other posts I've made today (if you really wanna). They're on Anonomitity and I've posted a bunch of comments on some other posts (on TC's blog, the Sandbox, and that).

Have I told you that I found a great new blog called Smile of The Day? Well, here is a post from a while ago that I really liked and found quite funny. (Don't be offended, eh?!)

Nervousness

At his first mass, a new priest was so nervous he could hardly get the words out. Immediately after he had managed the final benediction, he begged for advice from the monsignor. The monsignor told him: "When I am worried about getting nervous on the pulpit, I put a glass of vodka next to the water glass. if I start to get nervous, I take a sip."

So next Sunday the young priest takes the monsignor's advice. When he starts to get nervous at the beginning of the sermon, he reaches for the glass of vodka he had prepared. It certainly helped the nervousness, and he proceeds to talk up a storm. Upon his return to his office after mass, however, he finds the following note on the door:
1. Sip the vodka, don't gulp.
2. There are 10 commandments, not 12.
3. There are 12 disciples, not 10.
4. Jesus was consecrated, not constipated.
5. Jacob wagered his donkey, he did not bet his ass.
6. We do not refer to Jesus Christ as the late J.C.
7. The Father, Son, and Holy Ghost are not referred to as Daddy, Junior and the Spook.
8. David slew Goliath, he did not kick the shit out of him.
9. When David was hit by a rock and was knocked off his donkey,don't say he was stoned off his ass.
10. We do not refer to the cross as the "Big T."
11. When Jesus broke the bread at the Last Supper he said, "Take this and eat it for it is my body." He did not say "Eat me."
12. The Virgin Mary is not called "Mary with the Cherry."
13. The recommended grace before a meal is not: "Rub-a-dub-dub, thanks for the grub, yeah God!"
14. Next Sunday there will be a taffy-pulling contest at St. Peter's, not a Peter-pulling contest at St. Taffy's.


Okay, now that's done...
here's the quote:
Our lives are a manifestation of what we think about God.
- Anonymous

I don't really have anything to add to this.

Not exactly related to my life, but here's today's sermon:

New Growth

"He has made everything beautiful in its time." Ecclesiastes 3:11

It is springtime here in south Florida where we live. There are signs of new growth all about. This morning while walking I noticed all the light coloring of the season. The grass and all the varied trees are in their glorious pastel shades of green. It is so pretty, yet not nearly as eyecatching and dramatic as darker, brighter colors of more mature growth in full bloom.

Similarly, in our Christian walks, we are more pale and stand out less in earlier parts of our journeys. As we grow and mature and "hang out" with Jesus, we take on deeper, richer, more brilliant hues of the attributes of Jesus himself. We become easier to spot; singled out out more quickly.

God grows us all beautiful in His time. That's good news.

Prayer: Thank you, Lord, that I am a new creation in Christ, that the old is gone and the new is here. Thank you for growing me into the likeness of Christ. In Jesus' name, Amen.



All credit to DailyWisdom.GospelNet.Com



Love and Peace

Hannah

"Cab" by Train Lyrics

This is a relativly new song, and I like a couple of Train's songs, and I thought I would share these lyrics with you. Enjoy.


"Cab"
Train
"For Me It's You" (2006)

New York snow this time of year
There's nothing more beautiful to me
Except for you
Making my way on the town
And I'm seeing familiar places, faces
In my pile of coffee grounds

The days are better, the nights are still so lonely
Sometimes I think I'm the only cab on the road
Sometimes I think I'm the only cab on the road

Watching my breath rise in the sun
Pulling myself in two made one
Helplessly feel for my phone and drive away

This new rhythm I pursue
Is just my getting over you
Telling myself that I need to

The days are better, the nights are still so lonely
Sometimes I think I'm the only cab on the road
Sometimes I think I'm the only cab on the road

I'm still looking for a play no one said that it was fair
To be alone

The days are better, the nights are still so lonely
Sometimes I think I'm the only cab on the road

The days are better, the nights are still so lonely
Sometimes I think I'm the only cab on the road
Sometimes I think I'm the only cab on the road

Sunday, March 12

How fast the weekend Flew.

First off, when Katie was here on Friday I found a really cool blog called Smile of The Day. I really liked some of the jokes. Go check it out!

Okay, here's today's quote:

If you cannot feed a hundred people, then feed just one.
- Mother Teresa

Doesn't it make sence? One step at a time. If you can bring only one person to God, yourself, then that is a feat in itself. You cannot bring the entire world to God, but you can try your best.

I didn't really enjoy today's sermon, but you could go read it if you would like at DailyWisdom.GospelCom.Net

See you all tomorrow,
Love and Peace
Hannah

Friday, March 10

Drama

I hate Drama. It's only good on television.

Okay, today's quote:
Only put off until tomorrow what you are willing to die having left undone.
-Pablo Picasso

You never know what is going to happen. Don't take anything for granted. Live in the moment.

Love and Peace
Hannah

Thursday, March 9

10 to 9 in the Morning

It is only 8:50. In the morning. I think I might go crazy.

I am so tired, but can't sleep. Don't you hate it when that happens?

Anyways, I'm suppose to get paid today! Yay!

Okay, enough about me lol...here's today's quote:

Okay, nevermind. I didn't like today's quote lol

I really liked today's sermon though! Here it is for your viewing pleasure:

God's Credit Card

I dreamed I had a credit card with God's company. I charged on it without restraint. My balance went up fast. One day Jesus reminded me of the payoff. The charges on the card represented sins. He said the card would soon come due and the only payment was my life. (Ezekiel 18:4 says "Behold, all souls are mine; the soul of the father as well as the soul of the son is mine; the soul who sins shall die." Romans 6:23 says, "The wages of sin is death")

I told Jesus that I would quit charging on my card.

"That is good," He said. "But it doesn't take care of the balance so that you can live."

"I'll make up for sins," I assured Him. "I like to help people. I'm really not a bad person; just have some bad habits, you know."

He was very pleased that I wanted to take action.

"Will my good things cancel out the sins?" I asked Jesus.

"No," he said. "But you have an option that can take care of your problems so that you can live."

"Really? What can I do besides not adding sins to my account and doing good deeds to make up for the bad ones?"

"It doesn't work like that," He said gently. "Sins require that the sinner must die. There is no other way."

"I would die? I thought I was supposed to get to live?"

"Yes, that is what I said."

"Please explain," I said. "I don't understand."

"Your sins deserve death. You committed them. It is right that you die, but if you have an acceptable substitute who takes your place, you will live. I am that substitute. I can pay off your card, and you will no longer have a balance." Jesus was very persuasive.

"You mean I wouldn't even have an account anymore?"

"No, you still have an account!"

"So I guess if I sinned again, it would start all over," I said. I knew I wouldn't be able to stop right away. I'd really have to work on a few things.

"No, it doesn't start again. Once I have taken on your account, I keep the balance at zero all your life. You are obligated to change, though," He explained. "I pay for your sins and you live my life. The card changes, too. It no longer represents the balance of your sins, but the balance of my grace. (Galatians 2:20: "I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.")

"So you die and I live. I give you my sins, and you give me your righteousness. I ran up the bill and you pay it. You didn't sin, and you don't have a bill to pay. Say, Jesus, will you stay with me and help me understand all you have said? I want to hear the part about grace again."

"I'll be there all the way," He said.

And then I woke up.



All credit to DailyWisdom.GospelCom.Net



Love and Peace

Hannah

Wednesday, March 8

Aujourd'hui

Well, I have (almost) good news. Nan should be out of the hospital by Friday. Papa hasn't been eating well at all, you don't realize how much they depend on each other. Mom cooked him a roast and other things so he can have real food for a day or two.

Okay, here is the quote of the day:

"Men show their character in nothing more clearly than by what they think laughable."
-Goethe



I think this quote really discribes me well. Laughter holds society together, it keeps us laid back. It tells you a lot about a person when they laugh at crude humour. Be careful what you laugh at, you are forever being watched!

Well, I'm gonna go.
Love and Peace
Hannah

Tuesday, March 7

So sleepy....

Okay, okay. I know having an addiction to Project Runway is a bad thing because I can't stand tapeing it. So I stayed up to watch it...and now I can't focus on the screen.

Anyway,


Tomorrow I am going to Moncton with Mom and maybe Heather. It just doesn't seem possible that I was there on Sunday and everything was fine...and now Nan is in the hospital. It's hard asking mom why she's there because then she gets all teary and hard to understand, so I guess that I will just talk to her doctor tomorrow.

I hate hospitals.

Anyway (No. 2),
Quote of The Day
"Everything looks impossible for the people who never try anything."
-Jean-Louis Etienne

You really must take a leap of faith to get anywhere you want to go. Sometimes, once you get going you realize that maybe it isn't that far out of your reach. I remember the first time I rollerbladed down the freakin' huge hill at my old house how scared I was at first, but once I stood up and gave myself a little push it was so much easier than I thought before hand. Afterwards, I was pretty pro for the entire summer (I've since lost my gift). If I had kept practicing, I would have been able to never take those things off.

Oh Meh.

Today's sermon (that fits well with what I was thinking about today):

The Power of Prayer

"For the eyes of the Lord are on the righteous and his ears are attentive to their prayer." 1 Peter 3:12

I often hear people say they don't have time to devote to prayer. In today's society, this is somewhat understandable. Cellular phones, wireless networks, instant messaging, and other technologies have made most of us accessible, as they say, "24-7." What puzzles me is why these helpful communications devices have taken time away from the most important communication of all. While this technology that connects us to each other is helpful, each and every one of us has always had available a direct connection to God. It is the most important connection of all.

It's called prayer. It's hands-free, mobile, and there's always a good signal. As Christians, we have already signed the contract for coverage. All God asks of us in return is that we use the connection. We need to make time to use that connection. Just as we schedule time to attend a child's school pageant, schedule a doctor's appointment, or set a time for a business meeting, we need to schedule time for prayer.

Prayer does not need to be written on our calendars at a precise time each day, but it does need to be a priority in our daily lives. It's an opportunity to ask God for our needs and, more importantly, to ask for HIs guidance. No other connection gives us this opportunity- the chance to seek God's counsel in matters of our daily life. Only prayer permits the deep reflection that yields answers to our most difficult decisions.

The connection to God through prayer is powerful. No other connection enriches us in the same way. The connection is always available and always on; we just have to use it.


All credit to DailyWisdom.GospelCom.Net



Love and Peace

Hannah





Monday, March 6

Pilates

Man BodyFlow was a wicked work out and 15 minutes running afterward didn't help my legs either.

Anyways....
Quote of The Day
Few wishes come true by themselves.
- June Smith

Same as "Gain not without pain" or however that goes.
You really do have to work for everything in life. Being a "coaster" is not an option. You have to care and live at some point.

Meh, I'm really too tired to post anything deep and profound right now.


Today's sermon

Modern Technology

"What the wicked dreads will overtake him; what the righteous desire will be granted" Proverbs 10:24

Recently I went to the hospital to have several tests run. This was a new experience for me, and I was a little overwhelmed with the technology of it all. For the stress test, I was hooked up to a machine via electrodes attached to my body. A lot of information about the beat of my heart was logged as the test proceeded. The next test was an echogram. it was explained to me that it was an ultrasound of this vital organ. I could see my heart beating and the blood pulsing through as the technician moved the instrument from one part of my heart to another. The doctors will review the tests and tell me the results in a few days.

There is one fact the tests will not show, however. It is the reality that I have a heart that beats for Jesus. This is one fact which will not show up on any monitor, but it will show up in my lifestyle, by my actions and my words. Only God can read the printout of this most vital aspect of my heart. He is the only one who knows my motives, desires and inner truths. I pray that the desires of my heart and the life I lead will always be pleasing to God, and will bring glory to His name.

Who does your heart beat for?



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Love and Peace

Hannah

Thursday, March 2

TGIF! Nope, SHIT

As in, "Sorry Hun, it's Thursday" (thanks Lauren!)

Anyways, here is my quote:
Little things console us because little things afflict us.
- Blaise Pascal

Everyone gets that nagging feeling once and a while. Something small that doesn't really matter starts to bother and annoy you.
This quote really speaks for itself. I think it is positivly true.

I really liked today's sermon on DailyWisdom. Here it is for you!

Ask, And It Shall Be Given

"Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: For everyone that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall opened." Matthew 7:7-8 (KJV)

The man lived in an old mobile home in a very old mobile home park with his wife and two step sons. Recently his wife had lost her job and was having difficulty finding another job. The man had accepted Jesus when he was eleven years old. After graduating from high school, he occasionally attended church, but never regularly. For some reason, whenever he found himself in church, it was only during a hard time in his life. Usually it was because he experienced financial, marital, emotional, or spiritual problems. Problems are what drove him to church and drove him to pray.

Well, this was one of those times. The problem was financial, it was emotional, it was marital, and it was spiritual. As usual, he prayed (begged) God to help him and as usual, he felt like it did not help.

A few days later, God responded, "Why are you praying?"

The man thought about this for several days. He realized that God was answering his prayers. The rent was paid, he had electricity, water, a car, and food. So, the man prayed again: "Lord, I have realized that I only pray or go to church when I am having problems. Please forgive me for this. I give you thanks for my dad who led me to you, I thank you for my wife, my stepsons, my job, my home, and my car. All I will ask is that you will fill me with your Holy Spriit and make me the man, husband, stepfather, son, and Christian that you want me to be. In Jesus' name, Amen."

The very next day, the man awoke with a new view on life. He felt the presence of the Holy Spirit in his life. He was inspired to pray for other people and to give his problems to God. He went to church even after most of his problems were solved. From time to time he would fall away. He would lose the feeling and inspiration. However, every time that he asked for God to fill him with the Holy Spirit, God would answer.

Over the next several months, he prayed this more and more often until he felt filled with the Spirit so often that people at work began labeling him as a "Christian". His marriage became wonderful and his relationship with his stepsons became very friendly. He moved into a better home, bought a better vehicle, and began a new job that paid all of his family's medical benefits. People began to notice the changes in his life, and he remembered to thank God for these gifts.

One day God asked the man to do something for Him, "Write this!"



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