Headaches and Heartaches

They're so much the same

They hurt inside, you can't pick the spot

where

They hurt

So much pain

Killing me

I want to be

But I don't want to feel all this

It won't go away

It stays and stays

drugs numb you

but not your insides

not the pains of your insides

It lasts

it has no permission to stay

yet it's still there

like a lonely old woman

i greive

for all the things i didn't do

for all my regrets

for everyone ive hurt

and everyone whos hurt me

i dont want to feel this

yet the only way for it to vanish

is to get what it wants

like a 2 year old with a bag of chocolate chips

he wants to eat them all, but he cannot have it

hes desparate

yet no one will let him

no one will open the bag

my bag of chocolate is inside

i cant open it

and no one is willing to open it for me

this hurt is unbearable

i cant understand

i dont comprehend

all i can do is try to live with it

because if i give up,

it wins, i lose.

It lives, I die.

Thats the only way to rid it from me

Or, you could for me.