Futures.

Lately I've been thinking a lot about the future. Not just the daily worrying, but the bigger picture. Is daydreaming still permitted in high school?
All my life (I feel as if) I have been told that I have to go to UNB and get at least a bachelor's degree. My parents would prefer it to be in science. Since about grade nine I thought I wanted to go to Medical School afterwards, to become a doctor (probably in the Emergency Room). I think I might like that, but I also have feelings of wanting to go somewhere in Africa, have children, get married, and experience something a little different.
Tonight Meagan and I were talking, and she and I feel the same about a lot of things. Some older people say "it must be so easy for you guys now, having so many choices." I think they're wrong. I think it would have been better and less stressful if someone gave me a list of 10 careers and said "pick one." Now I'm feeling all sorts of pressure to pick the right courses, do extremely well in school, earn a ton of money, save all my money, apply for as many scholarships as possible, spend all my time working and studying, and...
I'm just so overwhelmed. Everyone tries to help, but they aren't doing very well.
I don't know what to do.
I could make a lot of money if I wrote an owners manual to life. Too bad I don't know how to deal with it myself.

Hannah.